Cannot do this by myself

I filed for disability for Bi-Polar depression in 2/2012, I was denied, appealed it, went to a hearing in front of an ALJ judge, lost the hearing, appealed it and lost. Now my only recourse is to drop it, reapply or take SS to federal court. My attorney will not take it to court, another attorney looked at the case and won't take it either. So I got all my records from my attorney and read them. I've had consistent psychiatric treatment since 2006 and psychotherapy since 2010. Both of these providers agree I cannot work but their medical records suck. There is barely a sentence written down for each visit. The psychologist didn't submit records to SS when requested, he just sent a summary letter that had inaccuracies. I had to go on medical leave from my jobs in 2006, 2008 and 2011 (just a couple weeks before my very last day of working). I had progressively lower responsibility jobs since 2006 because I was trying to find work that I could do. Unfortunately there are NO RECORDS of any of those 3 medical leaves. I also had an in-patient stay and over 15 out-patient visits at another mental health facility that there are no records from. The attorney said this facility doesn't usually return records when requested so he didn't request them. I requested them and got them in the mail in 5 days. I'm trying to get the medical leave info from the employers themselves but no one calls me back. I have 11 more days to file an appeal (if I had an attorney) and I'm spiraling down hill out of control. Reading these records and realizing the people who were supposed to be working for me have not is just too much to take mentally and I'm already very very not well. I need an advocate to go through these records and request information and file an extension to the appeal deadline. The ALJ judge didn't even see half of the documentation she should have. Please help me.